I know this is an old post, but it is also a good post. Thank you.

Hey and welcome!

Well this is a good blog entry, for a blog. But if you're wanting feedback, then yes the forums would be better. Maybe in the Relationships forum? Since it seems as if it's mostly how your partner is relating to you right now, when you're struggling.

Hugs, if wanted.

Well hoping that you find someone who can help. Welcome to the blog section! Please be sure to go to hospital if you feel the immediate urge to harm yourself, also remember we have a self-harm forum for people with such urges, whether they be everyday self harm or thoughts of killing oneself.

I'm not sure anything you did as a kid can be held against you like that in the future, juvenile records used to be sealed. Sounds as if you were doing stuff kids do, to me. Not that it was smart or advisable, but kids do dumb things, that's how you learn.

Consider posting in Remorse forum maybe. The blogs don't get much replies, but I think you will hear things similar to what I've said. The only way to move, is to put this behind you and go forward the wiser for it.

Hey,

Sorry you're having a rough time. I don't really have any fantastic advice unfortunately. However I would say, you should try and let go of the need for approval from your father. I know that's easier said than done but, you know what you want to do which is write. Do you write anything at the moment?
Try doing some on the side. Life's too short. And sometimes no matter how hard we might want someone's approval, were never going to get it. I can relate with my own father, he's never approved of my career aspirations... Or me either. I know what you've said is much more complex than that and I don't have the answers. But If you like to write, then write. You're 28, it's not over. Why not try it. You're in the prime of your life. I'm 27 and my life is a ######6 mess. And it gets to me every day. Similar to you I've jumped from job to job, place to place. I got kicked out of both college and university.
Hope it all works out for you.